Disappointed

I'm disappointed with myself...
just can't seem to break into my vicious cycle of procrastinations, delays, slacking-ness and eventually.. failures...just can't seem to find the determination to change my life...just can't seem to find the courage to do what i want to do..

Maybe I am born with a silver spoon in my mouth...(in my case, i guess its more like i'm born with a stainless steel spoon in my mouth though)

heck, I can't even decide what i want to do...
oh well, lol...uncertainty breeds instability, which breeds chaos, which breeds anarchy, which breeds change, which breeds a wave of fresh air, which breeds excitement, which breed vibrancy, which breeds...I dunno....creative destruction?

Anyway, remember our Economics? One of the pre-requisite for growth is that structural rigidities must be minimized to promote the mobility of factors of production...

So maybe I need to be more mobile??go to where the demand for me is high..i wonder if there exist such a place though..

But to be fair to myself, I really do enjoy slacking, and delaying...at least people won't have that high an expectation of myself right??

我好像是吃不到葡萄的狐狸....